It’s almost May! How are you doing? School will end for me soon, but I’m sure you’ve got about a month and a half left, unfortunately. When it’s nicest out of all times, alas…
I’m pretty stressed, my AP tests are under a week from now. Thankfully, they will be over soon. I’ve been studying basically nonstop and I’m exhausted, so I don’t have much to talk about. Next time I write, I know I’ll be done, which is such a relief (even if I fail enormously). Do you have any big tests? I don’t know when those start for public-schoolers. I hope not, best to avoid those. Not fun.
I had another dream with you and Mom (Mel) in it, but I have forgotten most of it now. I saw you both on a beach and while you were happy to see me, Mom kept trying to get me to leave like I was harassing you. She had changed your name to Madeleine for some reason (I was reading a book the night before which once belonged to a Madeleine, which probably caused that). I looked into a dream book to see if there might be any symbolism, but it seems the author was very concerned with making everything a symbol of, well, sexuality and genitals (they kept mentioning Freud too), so no luck there.
t seems you’re a regular visitor to my dreams nowadays; it is the only way I can see you. The ones where you act like nothing happened are more pleasant, but also more melancholic. They are not true visions. You are always the same age, like a child who has died. Oh, goodnight, Soren. Perhaps I will see you some hours from now, in another dream; it is an easier thing to hope for than anything else.
With love,
Alice