How are you doing? I’ve been having an unfortunate couple of days, but I am trying to feel better. I have done some drawing lately, but not much.
Life, as usual, is rather uneventful. Has anything interesting happened to you lately? I have mostly been working, and trying to write when I am not, but often find myself in the clutches of an immovable weariness and sadness. Do you understand? I often can’t bring myself to eat when hungry or stand when I have something I need to do.
I still check Pinterest everyday. You are always welcome to message me there. Your friend, Yee Hee (now blueraspberryfundip) has blocked me, and I messaged them from Mom’s account some time ago. I just wish someone would tell me to screw off rather than always metaphorically putting down the old-timey phone and leaving me listen to silence. Just one ‘F*ck you, Alice, you did (whatever thing it is I have done to be abandoned by mom) and hurt your sister!’. How grateful I would be! To not be left to radio silence and to know why I am a stranger and criminal to my own family and friends, at eleven years old! What can eleven year olds even do to warrant this? The mothers of murderers are always in court, yet I am completely alone.
Soren, the Shares suck for not doing anything but telling me to keep praying. But they still love you, and they will accept you if you try to contact them, for you have done nothing wrong. You will always have a family, even if it feels like one side has been completely cut off. Grandma kept visiting you for as long as she could.
With love,
Alice